I keep using the phrase ‘crumbling under the weight’, in various contexts.
This is, perhaps, another one of my werds – which is to say, not words at all, or not words only.
Werds is what I’ve been using to refer to my attempts to communicate the non-rational sort of concepts that I have in mind, when I say particular things.
This weight of which I speak- is not one easily described. It can take many forms.
Yes, I mean the kinds of weights which are more palpable- the kinds which have an immediate, and strong effect upon our emotional landscape.
But I also mean the kinds of weights which are more subtle. The kind of crumbling – that is laziness.
Laziness is what happens in me when I do not have the energy, the strength- to keep moving. To keep working to be better, to make my life better, to make the world better.
The Obstacles Problem.
Obstacles, as I use that werd- can take many forms. Come in many guises.
But they are all things which drain energy.
I usually have a pretty clear idea of things I should be doing- things I could be doing, right now- that will make my life better.
But to actually begin doing them, this takes energy.
It takes power of will – to look at the (figurative or literal!) messes in my life, and begin to break them down into manageable stages.
But sometimes, like today- All I need, in order to press-start Is to realize that, today- I am not tired.
Today, I’ve been lazy. And that is not a thing I like to be, so now- I’m fixing that.