The Not Smoking Project – Day One

9:05 am:

Alright. Had my last cigarette last night.

My plan is as follows: I will stay busy- first and foremost, cleaning out my car and the porch table, where I’ve been sitting to smoke.

Every time I see an ashtray, I get that little ‘I want to smoke’ nudge.

So I will get rid of all of that stuff.

The busier I keep myself, the less time I have to sit and realize how long it’s been since I smoked.

I need to keep it out of my mind as much as possible for the first couple of days – Or use it as fuel

So I have a workout playlist on, and every time I think about smoking- I imagine having to post on Facebook that I failed.

And that feeling gives me the motivation to find the next thing that I can do, to keep my brain off of smoking, for a little while longer.

9:30 am:

I have a new idea. I am going to try going to sit outside when I get a strong urge to smoke, see if that helps trick my brain.  Maybe I can get some of the associated relief value that comes from the ritual of the porch sit- without the cigarette itself.

 

10:52 am:
I am sitting where I normally smoke
Without ever allowing myself to imagine actually going to procure some
Without moving
Until the craving passes

This one craving

And if I can pull out ahead of this one; then I will be a little stronger, a little more capable of facing and overcoming the next one
But I do not just…. ignore them.

brooke

I spent three years living on the street in Los Angeles. I came out of that, changed. This is my story.

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